shell-shocked

feeling a little shell-shocked.  watched 'Field of Dreams' just now.  haven't seen it in more than twenty years.  probably didn't think much of it then; guess i was more concerned with the woman i went to see it with.  these days my perspective on hearing "the voice" makes the movie seem very sad.  i wish it didn't hurt so much sometimes, life.  feels like i'll be in mourning forever.